Watching others embarrass themselves is painful. I could not even stand to watch “I Love Lucy” reruns when I was growing up. I will still fast forward through scenes in movies that include emotional embarrassment of a main character. I am trying to think of what it is exactly that embarrasses me.
In some ways, I have structured my life to avoid feeling embarrassed. I like knowing all of the information, all of the rules, and all of issues going into a situation so I am never caught off guard. I always have an excuse, even for other people.
I worry that this will affect my writing. What if I never put any characters into embarrassing situations? Life is awkward and embarrassing sometimes. My stories might lack passion.