Watching others embarrass themselves is painful. I could not even stand to watch “I Love Lucy” reruns when I was growing up. I will still fast forward through scenes in movies that include emotional embarrassment of a main character. I am trying to think of what it is exactly that embarrasses me.
In some ways, I have structured my life to avoid feeling embarrassed. I like knowing all of the information, all of the rules, and all of issues going into a situation so I am never caught off guard. I always have an excuse, even for other people.
I worry that this will affect my writing. What if I never put any characters into embarrassing situations? Life is awkward and embarrassing sometimes. My stories might lack passion.
I am not a night owl or an early bird. I guess I am more of a middle of the day kind of person.
This is my ideal writing day:
With my first cup of coffee, I check my email
I read the news
I surf the web a bit
Second cup of coffee, I write for a while, not stopping until I reach a word number goal or a time goal, which is usually lower than what I need for the day, but don’t worry, I have lots of time
I watch tv or read a book
Get caught, so I reheat my coffee which has gotten cold and I go back to writing, try to stay on task but I have hours yet
Read or watch some more
Surf the net
Read about writing, feel inspired
Write, realize that it is getting late and really buckle down
Admittedly, its rare I have a whole day for nothing but writing, but it is great when I do.