Watching others embarrass themselves is painful. I could not even stand to watch “I Love Lucy” reruns when I was growing up. I will still fast forward through scenes in movies that include emotional embarrassment of a main character. I am trying to think of what it is exactly that embarrasses me.
In some ways, I have structured my life to avoid feeling embarrassed. I like knowing all of the information, all of the rules, and all of issues going into a situation so I am never caught off guard. I always have an excuse, even for other people.
I worry that this will affect my writing. What if I never put any characters into embarrassing situations? Life is awkward and embarrassing sometimes. My stories might lack passion.
I am not a night owl or an early bird. I guess I am more of a middle of the day kind of person.
This is my ideal writing day:
With my first cup of coffee, I check my email
I read the news
I surf the web a bit
Second cup of coffee, I write for a while, not stopping until I reach a word number goal or a time goal, which is usually lower than what I need for the day, but don’t worry, I have lots of time
I watch tv or read a book
Get caught, so I reheat my coffee which has gotten cold and I go back to writing, try to stay on task but I have hours yet
Read or watch some more
Surf the net
Read about writing, feel inspired
Write, realize that it is getting late and really buckle down
Admittedly, its rare I have a whole day for nothing but writing, but it is great when I do.
When I was young, I could never decide what kind of career I wanted to pursue. There were so many fascinating options out there. I wanted to be an archaeologist, an artist, a park ranger, an actor, a clothing designer, or even an accountant.
But the thing I loved most of all was reading. Fiction is the one place where anything is possible. It was that realization that made me want to be a writer.
With fiction, I could have any career that interested me. I could be an archaeologist searching for a hidden Anasazi ruin. I could be a bohemian artist living in Greenwich Village. I could be park ranger in any national park that I wanted. I could be a famous actor that designs clothes. I could even be an accountant.
How fun is that?